mindfirerunner

This morning was one of those mornings I really did not want to get out of bed. I hit the snooze button a few more times than normal, and somehow managed to crawl out of bed. It’s amazing how many thoughts go through your head from the time the alarm goes off until you’re actually out of bed. I thought about how tired I was, how good I’d slept, how warm I was, what laundry there was down stairs and if I should throw in another load this morning or wait until I got home, what Connor’s blood sugar would be since we did a site change the night before and he was running high, what I needed to pack for the baby since his 1 year appointment was this morning, if I needed to run the dish washer or if there’d be room for the breakfast dishes, and what kind of coffee I wanted to have…and if I should hit the snooze one last time. I saw this the other day (thanks Cuz!) and laughed so hard because it is pretty darn true of the thought train that runs through my head almost constantly and manages to wreck only once in a while.

I managed to get out the door this morning for a run, but began looking back at all of the things that could have stopped me. As a mom, spouse, friend, co-worker, sister (you name it, we all have our roles) there are things that will always be on our to-do list. Most of them we will never get to, and that’s okay. We learn how to prioritize. We learn what really matters. We learn to roll with the punches (cat puke on the floor, dog peeing in front of us on the carpet while we stare in disbelief, kids screaming and crying) and sometimes we laugh – sometimes we cry. Sometimes we manage to do them both at the same time even. But this is what makes life…life. How boring would our lives be if we knew what to expect all of the time? So, we clean up the puke, the dog pee, wipe tears from eyes and carry on.

My family is laughing while reading this, I’m almost certain. I have always been the one that has to have everything in its place, and order has to exist in everything all of the time. I have been working on maintaining order while maintaining sanity though. It’s easy to get caught up in the little things that can drag us down and wrap us up into little tight knots of stress and tension. Even our best laid plans of getting in our run can go out the door – without us. And, that’s okay.

Hi, my name is Luciana and I’m an ADD/OCD runner. What’s your name?